The great unknown where feet may fail
And there I find You in the mystery
In oceans deep
My faith will stand
And I will call upon Your name
And keep my eyes above the waves
When oceans rise
My soul will rest in Your embrace
For I am Yours and You are mine
Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Savior
Mackiegirl, one of the seven friends from high school, stopped by our house today.
She walked into the entryway, stopped within my hug and cried with me. Later in our conversation, after listening intently, she offered these thoughts, "Brynne and I were talking. She said this year is different. We don't have the pressure of - 'This is the first _______ without Tay. Now, we just have have everyday without her.' "
In the space where trust is without out borders, where our eyes must rise above the waves, where the oceans rise in a moment, we are left there.
We agreed she'd have our tail if we didn't keep trying - even in the emptiness that sadness fills.
Wade's life remains full. From church he studied alone, worked with a group on a project, set up the TeePee for a 5k in honor of a classmate gone to soon, led his 8th grade small group and then attended his own small group. He's reading To Kill a Mockingbird as I type and his last comment was - "Why don't Jim and Scout just do what Atticus tells them to do?" A parent smiles...
As I left service this morning, the mother of one of his eighth grade small group boys stopped me, "Aren't you Wade's mom?"
I love being Wade's mom - the boy whose passion is matched only by his intelligence. She said kind words, and I thought how thankful I was to hear those words about my kid. I thought of the kids in his life who have made a difference in just the last week and told myself to write their parents. We should know in the everyday what kind of difference our lives make - not just when we find ourselves at the edge of the world. We Live; we Laugh; we leave a Legacy -and when someone leaves their legacy with us - we should Let them know.
The sermon studied Romans 12 - the transformation and renewal of our minds. As the day finishes, the words of these children run together.
..... Now we just have everyday without her....
.......Why don't they just do what they are told....
...."but be transformed by the renewing of your mind...."
....Wherever You would call me/Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander/And my faith will be made stronger
....In the everyday we live without her -
- we will choose to renew our minds trusting without borders ...even when we are not okay ...
Until heaven shares her...